Moving to a new country, trying to fit in as much as possible isn’t an easy task.
I won’t hide that lately I have been feeling emotionally overwhelmed. I know that I don’t show that and I usually smile at people’s faces but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel very tired. Too much to handle at one time.
I actually for the first time not being able to predict my own emotional state. Many want too much from me, too much of the time.
Yes everyone has triggers that make them more vulnerable to react to them, and unfortunately someone just pushed those triggers and made me remember an earlier trauma from a previous experience in my life.
But they say that flat tires are simply our opportunity to pull over and stop, to face our problems and to reevaluate the road we’re on.
So from now on, I won’t distract myself, but rather reframe my thoughts to manage my emotions.
Now I wrote about them, tomorrow I will talk with safe people and maybe one day I will learn how to cry them out when alone!