I NEED A VACATION


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Photos By: Roger Anis

I wake up with a sinking feeling because of my to-do list got longer than I expected during this trip. Yes I’m overwhelmed.

Sometimes we are our own worst enemy. Our brains conjure up worst-case scenarios, which in turn scares us and makes us think it’s not possible to succeed.

Yes it is difficult to strategically plan your schedule to ease stress if you live in Egypt, but nothing is impossible. I tried as much as possible to plan events accordingly.

I woke up early everyday since I arrived with my heart racing thinking of the things I left undone.

My vision was for long (solo) walks, refreshing reading, deep conversations with my friends.  What was I thinking?!

To finish official papers in Egypt, you need many days, so now I’m planning for a real vacation while I’m having one. Lolllll

In the end I’m enjoying what I’ve got.  I’m sitting most of my time under the sun because it is rare to feel its warmth in Sweden during the xmas period.

So Happy Me Anyway! Kisses XOXO

DEJA VU


Jasmine Elnadeem

Moving to a new country, trying to fit in as much as possible isn’t an easy task.

I won’t hide that lately I have been feeling emotionally overwhelmed. I know that I don’t show that and I usually smile at people’s faces but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel very tired. Too much to handle at one time.

I actually for the first time not being able to predict my own emotional state. Many want too much from me, too much of the time.

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Yes everyone has triggers that make them more vulnerable to react to them, and unfortunately someone just pushed those triggers and made me remember an earlier trauma from a previous experience in my life.

But they say that flat tires are simply our opportunity to pull over and stop, to face our problems and to reevaluate the road we’re on.

So from now on, I won’t distract myself, but rather reframe my thoughts to manage my emotions.

Now I wrote about them, tomorrow I will talk with safe people and maybe one day I will learn how to cry them out when alone!