To My Antonio

My grief will not end. It is triggered by many things, mornings are hard, coming back home isn’t the same without you, and sleeping will never be the same with your paws on my face.

Many has been telling me that if I have effectively mourned your loss, I will then achieve closure. I’m not sure if someone lost his kid can achieve that ever, emotions are triggered in anytime and sometimes all the time. I’m trying to hide them but sometimes I burst crying because they are so strong inside me.

Charismas will be so hard without you around. I was gonna celebrate your birthday in February, but it will be hard on me and Ophelia.

From previous experience, and as time passes, I think the intensity of feelings about the loss will lessen, I might find ways to sooth or distract myself. But I will not be able to get over it because that’s impossible.

I came today to office to see flowers from my favorite colleague on my desk, with a note of “Remember all the love and fun”. Maybe that is a way to remember you, my beloved “Antonio”.

Today I wrote your name near to my heart because you will always be with me till I meet your beautiful soul in a better place.

Love, Mom


Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

Jasmine Elnadeem

On Friday I went to see “Dracula” at the Royal Opera in Stockholm.

The opera is based on Bram Stoker’s classic novel of 1897, and most people know at least the essentials of the story.

It has been filmed a number of times, however, this was the first time the tale has reached the operatic stage, and it is a truly stunning and spectacular, visually and musically.

The Dracula story has been always one of favorite intense love story since I was a kid. The story has indeed changed everything we know about the world’s most famous vampire.

I was so happy and excited as a kid when my boyfriend booked us the tickets and it was a great experience to go together to the royal opera for the first time, but not the last.

Hope you all had a great weekend! XO

Feeling Grey .. Feeling Blue

Jasmine Elnadeem

It doesn’t take a lot to confirm that weather affects your mood, and in Sweden we witness more dark days than the bright ones.

Things has been a little gloomy when you wake up in the morning and see no light.

So it is time to take your vitamin D regularly and hope for the best.

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But what else can you do in these days to have a bit of fun?!

Oh baby, I got some tips for you:

1- Take a hike and see all the colored leaves. I actually moved to new place so looking forward to explorer the area around us.

2- Fika and more Fika. Yes Swedes love to have a lot of coffee breaks (fika) but in these days cafes feels more warm and cozy than the rest of the year.

Lunch with Kajsa at LOCALS

3- Mysa time. It means cozy up. You can do that alone or with friends. Light some candles, put some flowers and enjoy a drink or two.

4- Time to go to the museum. Last year I spent a lot of rainy days at different museums. Still there is the ABBA museum which I wish to see this year.

5- Get fit in the gym. More Swedes turn to escape the dark mornings and days by heading to the gym. It is natural to invest some quality time in oneself. Running outside makes no sense so the gym is an ideal place anytime.

Today I’m heading to the gym after work, I will have an early dinner then cozying up in front of TV or maybe I will curl up with a book.

Have a great day y’all! Puss Puss