MY MAY DAY


Jasmine ElnadeemIMG_4120May Day (1st of May) in Sweden follows the Walpurgis Eve with a wide choice of events, marches and demonstrations taking place across the country to celebrate the working class’ rights.

The 1st of May is a public holiday in Sweden, and many Swedes spend the day either attending the celebrations of political parties and trade unions, or simply enjoying a picnic outdoors with friends and family, weather permitting.
IMG_4148IMG_4224IMG_4243IMG_4191IMG_4241It was my first time yesterday to join the May Day demonstration in Stockholm, and it is quite amazing.

I come from Egypt where I’m used to see the police firing tear gas and arresting dozens to break up the protests. But yesterday the show was different as the celebration is an important cultural experience for most of Swedish people.

For me it looked so pretty like a parade. People gathered at Medborgarplatsen and then everyone walked from there to Kungsträdgården by way of Slussen.

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There were probably thousands of people, and you can hear different languages coming out from the demonstration. Of course there were plenty of signs in Swedish. But there were also some signs in English, in Persian and Arabic.

Along with being one of the largest demonstration, it was the loudest. That’s because there were several bands. Hahaha, in fact. many of them were playing at the same time.

In the end it was an exhausting Första Maj, but a fun day and great experience indeed, plus it was a sunny day 🙂

ONLY THE LONELY


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My inner critic keeps me awake at night.

When I’m down, I don’t leave my room for days, I don’t eat, sleep or stop thinking.

Being overwhelmed with much emotions makes me down, so down that I can barely move my limbs, get out of bed or even smile at my loved ones.

And when I’m happy I’m like a manic, I love life, people and I’m open for crazy ideas .

I dreamt to be with someone who knows how to hold me, speak softly in my ears and say “IT IS GONNA BE OK, BABE”.

Being surrounded with those who can’t help you or make you feel down all the time, it can be really hard.

Last time I broke down, a darling friend took my hand and tucked me into bed and I just felt as safe as a baby.

Today I’m far away from my darlings, sometimes I feel shaky, anxious and I panic. Panic attacks makes my anxiety have an incredible effect on my ability to control my emotions. Recently I’m showing inappropriate anger, but sometimes anger is necessary.

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During my anxiety I empty my bladder frequently, I get numbness in my arm, I get nightmares, I feel on the edge, when anyone snaps at me I keep thinking non stop about that, my decisions are indecisive, I’m afraid of the crowd and being left alone at same time, my body/muscles are tense and in pain, I’m easily frightened.

I don’t know what I’m doing and though thinking of my problems for hours, I don’t think they are resolved. To me, the world is just a big scary place. Basically I feel losing control. I’m afraid of what waiting me for me in the future.

Strangely enough, I keep thinking of the things I have not yet accomplished.

Feeling that the walls are closing in around to suffocating me.

Anxiety can destroy your confidence in yourself!!!!!!

I’m no a superwoman. I’m still trying to stand out strong. Next month I’m gonna be 32 years old, so I’m a survivor.

In the end it is no shame to feel unwell or to recognize that you are hurt or disappointed or depressed.

Being depressed doesn’t define me, it allows me to see my human emotions which I’m proud and ashamed of them.

PS: This post is in memory of my best-friend who passed away at a young age.

EMBRACE YOUR IMPERFECTION ★


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❝ Because my imperfection is perfect!!

We live in an age where the pressures of needing to have it all figured out is creating higher levels of stress. What makes us truly happier or fulfilled?!

Is being defined by the society rank, job title or by being who we really are and what we desire to be?

I’m a perfectionist but I LOVE my imperfection.

We all were born as pure perfection but we took us and what we have for granted simply because they exist.

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WEEKEND = Strolling around under the sun taking pictures

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I see girls much younger and more beautiful than me but they tend to declare a war and hate their body and try desperately to fix it.

Living with the illusion of perfection is of little relevance. The pressure we face push us to compete to reach to the perfect and ideal shape in everything though what makes us human beings is the imperfection of taking chances.

Falling and failing is what makes our existence is so perfect. So look to yourself today in the mirror and embrace your imperfection.

LOVE ME/LOVE YOU ❤