VACATION MOOD: ON


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I was officially on holiday since Thursday (Yayyyyyy). I spent the first couple of days hanging out under the sun with my friends and boyfriend.

Travelling to see the world makes me happier and put me in a better mood.

I know why I love traveling. I love getting out from my comfort zone to seeing new places, new people, having  new experiences and collecting new memories.

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These days all I wish for is to be on a vacation mood for a longer time, so I can really enjoy just taking it easy and living life day by day.

Now I’m at Stockholm Arlanda Airport ready for my trip to Jordan and looking forward to meeting my best friend and beloved ones.

Wishing you an amazing time! Love, J

THROWBACK TO EGYPT


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Photos Credit: KAROLINE KAMEL

Hey lovely people,

Hope that you all are ready for a great and long weekend.

Personally I’m getting ready to celebrate midsummer with my friends in Stockholm.

As I mentioned before, midsummer is a unique celebration when adults and children come together to picnic in the grass, decorate the midsummer pole, make flower wreaths, play traditional games and dance to music.

But I won’t lie to you or myself, I have been feeling down today, I spent the whole day at home and I feel homesick.

The anxiety and emotional distress which come together because I’m staying away and disconnected from my friends isn’t easy to handle.

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Sky Pool – Fairmont where one can enjoy the skyline of Cairo!

I’m trying not to let that prevent me from having good time in Sweden or enjoy traveling to new places.

To overcome such feelings I decided to plan for a trip to visit my best friend.

I will be booking my flight ticket very soon. But now I’m thinking of all the chatting which is waiting for me and the great adventure that awaits the both of us!

Anyway here is a throwback to some favorite moments in Cairo.

Ahh, I wish my every week starts and ends with this the sun above me and the pool in front of me.

I just love the lazy pool days! To lay by the pool, drink lots of water, cocktails and eat fresh fruits. But at this moment I’m laying on couch blogging Hahahaha!!

Talk soon

ONLY THE LONELY


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My inner critic keeps me awake at night.

When I’m down, I don’t leave my room for days, I don’t eat, sleep or stop thinking.

Being overwhelmed with much emotions makes me down, so down that I can barely move my limbs, get out of bed or even smile at my loved ones.

And when I’m happy I’m like a manic, I love life, people and I’m open for crazy ideas .

I dreamt to be with someone who knows how to hold me, speak softly in my ears and say “IT IS GONNA BE OK, BABE”.

Being surrounded with those who can’t help you or make you feel down all the time, it can be really hard.

Last time I broke down, a darling friend took my hand and tucked me into bed and I just felt as safe as a baby.

Today I’m far away from my darlings, sometimes I feel shaky, anxious and I panic. Panic attacks makes my anxiety have an incredible effect on my ability to control my emotions. Recently I’m showing inappropriate anger, but sometimes anger is necessary.

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During my anxiety I empty my bladder frequently, I get numbness in my arm, I get nightmares, I feel on the edge, when anyone snaps at me I keep thinking non stop about that, my decisions are indecisive, I’m afraid of the crowd and being left alone at same time, my body/muscles are tense and in pain, I’m easily frightened.

I don’t know what I’m doing and though thinking of my problems for hours, I don’t think they are resolved. To me, the world is just a big scary place. Basically I feel losing control. I’m afraid of what waiting me for me in the future.

Strangely enough, I keep thinking of the things I have not yet accomplished.

Feeling that the walls are closing in around to suffocating me.

Anxiety can destroy your confidence in yourself!!!!!!

I’m no a superwoman. I’m still trying to stand out strong. Next month I’m gonna be 32 years old, so I’m a survivor.

In the end it is no shame to feel unwell or to recognize that you are hurt or disappointed or depressed.

Being depressed doesn’t define me, it allows me to see my human emotions which I’m proud and ashamed of them.

PS: This post is in memory of my best-friend who passed away at a young age.