I NEED A VACATION


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Photos By: Roger Anis

I wake up with a sinking feeling because of my to-do list got longer than I expected during this trip. Yes I’m overwhelmed.

Sometimes we are our own worst enemy. Our brains conjure up worst-case scenarios, which in turn scares us and makes us think it’s not possible to succeed.

Yes it is difficult to strategically plan your schedule to ease stress if you live in Egypt, but nothing is impossible. I tried as much as possible to plan events accordingly.

I woke up early everyday since I arrived with my heart racing thinking of the things I left undone.

My vision was for long (solo) walks, refreshing reading, deep conversations with my friends.  What was I thinking?!

To finish official papers in Egypt, you need many days, so now I’m planning for a real vacation while I’m having one. Lolllll

In the end I’m enjoying what I’ve got.  I’m sitting most of my time under the sun because it is rare to feel its warmth in Sweden during the xmas period.

So Happy Me Anyway! Kisses XOXO

BACK ON BLACK


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Walking like a tourist in the Old Town – Gamla stan

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In reality there no shame of admitting to having moments of humanity and vulnerability, I am just a human and I’m not supposed to be always strong.

Lately I experienced bouts of depression that range from simple sadness to life re-considerations. And while the women/men I knew never demonstrated the reality of depression in their lives, the reality of my experience tells me that there had to have been tears in the dark, moments of surrender, wishes of ending lives over life struggles.

I have been given the chance to discuss issues that I may find uncomfortable to bring up in other situations, or even with our my families and friends.

The feeling of distress and confusion in a transitional phase is a normal feeling which everyone has felt it at least a couple of times but recently I realized that no one knows what’s going to happen next. We just occasionally like to pretend we do because it allows us to feel safe.

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During my life time, I’ve pushed people away, I’ve come closer with others, I cried, I laughed, I suffered and I enjoyed myself at the same time without feeling ashamed.

Unfortunately, the more we compromise our values, the more of a negative impact it has on our mental wellbeing.

I always said to myself I’m going to make it on my own. Taking a stand – saying that I will not tolerate or put up with certain attitudes or behavior – means being willing to accept the responsibility of making that choice and thus shouldering the consequences.

Doing the right thing or standing up for my believes may not be easy mission as many think, but when I do, I know that I’ll be able to look myself in the mirror and feel good about myself

The truth is, we wouldn’t be human if we didn’t make mistakes, but learning from those mistakes and standing for what we believe in the vast majority of time is what is most important.. We’re all human, and it is up to us stand up for ourselves or for one another.

Today is the “World Kindness Day” so be kind to yourself and to someone else.

Puss & Kram, J

I LAUGHED IN FACE OF CANCER 🎗


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What it feels like when you told that you have a cancer?!

When I was told I had a cancer, I didn’t yell, I actually laughed.

I don’t believe in fate or miracles. I believe that only my will can shape the future.

I always laughed when I panic!! Hahaha!!

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The days that follow are full of shock, denial, fear, anger, and even sorrow.

I realised also that the ones who think they know me, they really don’t know anything at all.

My therapist lately told me that I’m a strong woman for being able to fight for myself over and over again.

But I have to say that I took long time working on my emotional state before I was able to actually share anything about my cancer to people.

Sharing my cancer story still not an easy task, I don’t know where to start, and when I do, people react to this kind of news in different ways.

Some reacted negatively for not knowing from the start. Others were reminded with their own fears about cancer and started to ask me questions as if I was an expert.

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I believe that we are free to share what we want and I still refuse to share certain information which I consider very private.

In the end Knowing about other people’s personal experience of cancer can be a source of support and inspiration when you or someone you love is going through cancer treatment.

BE KIND TO THOSE WHO FOUGHT TO LIVE!!

There is beauty in a woman whose confidence comes from experience. She is not afraid to take risks knowing if she should fall she can pick herself back up and move forward. I have started to do this and I believe that you can do too!!

XOXO /J